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Thursday, January 13, 2011

It's one of those days. Again. One of those days where missing you is just too hard to bear.

It's been close to six years and I still don't know how to let you go. How to let me go. How to let us go.

I don't talk about you anymore but I still think about you. All the time. And each time is still filled with remorse. It still hurts. I don't think I've ever fully recovered from your demise.

I can't even bring myself to delete log files of our conversations. I know, I know. How stupid of me to hold on to someone who's not even here anymore but those log files...they're the only things that remind me that you were real. They hold the best conversations I've ever had with anyone and I've re-read them a million times.

I don't know what I would give to wake up to your voice, to tell you about my day, to listen to you talk about yours. Or to just hear you say you love me.

I miss you.

And often, I have to shake myself and remember that it's been almost 6 years. That's it's time to get out of this funk.

But my heart still aches.

I don't think I'll ever fully recover.

"You have to look at what you have right in front of you, at what it could be, and stop measuring it against what you've lost. I know this to be wise and true, just as I know that pretty much no one can do it." — Jonathan Tropper

Bunny @ Thursday, January 13, 2011

Wednesday, September 16, 2009

I miss this blog and I am sooo tempted to post here.

Bunny @ Wednesday, September 16, 2009

Friday, January 04, 2008

The new blog is UP!!!!

I will now officially move to SPUNKY MUMSY.

See you all there!

Bunny @ Friday, January 04, 2008

Tuesday, December 04, 2007

I am thinking of creating a new blog. Something new. Something fresh.

Don't get me wrong--I LOVE THIS BLOG. I love it so much that I sometimes spend hours just reading old entries. Thing is, the me in this blog is no longer me, at least that's what I feel.

Thanks to motherhood, my outlook in life has changed so much. And I want to write about it. Heck, I miss writing.

So, yeah. I think I'll be staring a new blog very, very soon.

Bunny @ Tuesday, December 04, 2007

Thursday, October 04, 2007

It's probably going to be a good thing that hardly anyone visits this site anymore.

I have a thought has been haunting me for weeks and it has come to a point where I need to just let it out, even if I would rather be mum about it. I'm going to go crazy by keeping this to me, myself and I.

Why do I sometimes feel that I was meant to be a single mom?

I don't know if its the fear of marrying the wrong person--because honestly, when can we really be sure that the person we're with is the person we're supposed to spend the rest of our lives with?

Has anyone ever felt the same way? Your 2 cents would be appreciated.


Bunny @ Thursday, October 04, 2007

Sunday, July 01, 2007

I will miss you so so so much, Tashi boy :( Thank you for loving us the way you did :(

Bunny @ Sunday, July 01, 2007

Wednesday, May 23, 2007

For someone I no longer talk about but remember. Everyday.

"And as I float along this ocean
I can feel you like a notion that won't seem to let me go
Cause when I look to the sky something tells me you're here with me
And you make everything alright
And when I feel like I'm lost something tells me you're here with me
And I can always find my way when you are here"
-- When I look to the Sky, Train

Bunny @ Wednesday, May 23, 2007

Saturday, April 28, 2007


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Bunny @ Saturday, April 28, 2007

Monday, April 23, 2007

After a year of making a mental note to go, I finally went to the Salcedo community market last Saturday and I am sooooooo coming back!

I was so engrossed with each stall that I forgot I brought my camera with me so I can take pictures! Next time (next saturday? hehe!), I'll take pictures!

My sister, Francine laughed at me when I bought potted herbs again--basil and mint. I've been on a potted herbs buying spree since last week (I've got dill, parsley, oregano, thyme, rosemary and basil). Francine says its such a sign of motherhood and old age and she would probably end up giving me orchids on my next birthday (I turned 28 last week!).

But it's true. Here are the signs:

1. I've been cooking, cooking and cooking.
2. My love for food blogs! (Marketmanila, Dessert Comes First, Pinoycook)
3. I'm always searching for recipes online.
4. I'm always looking forward to trips to the market--as in palengke ha.
5. I was planning on switching cable companies last December because Sky Cable is so expensive but decided not to when I realized I would not have the Lifestyle Network anymore.
6. Favorite shows on the Lifestyle Network: Barefoot Contessa (gawd I loovvee her!!!), Everyday Italian, Iron Chef America, 30 minute meals, Rachael Ray Show, Emeril Live (he can be annoying), Food 911 with Tyler Florence (hottie!) and Boy meets Grill with Bobby Flay .
7. Last Christmas, I asked my mom for a food processor. She said, "Wag na. May mga katulong ka naman." Hello, hindi naman si Wolverine yung helpers namin. hehehe!
8. I jumped for joy when V fixed our turbo roaster.
9. I want an oven that works because I want to learn how to bake.
10. I've been looking for a really good kitchen knife.
11. And a nice wooden chopping board!

See? Nanay na nga talaga ako! And that's okay, because I want Joaquin to grow up and be able to say that his mom is the best cook. I feel that way about mine :)

Have a wonderful week!

Bunny @ Monday, April 23, 2007

Wednesday, March 28, 2007

I've been praying that my mom doesn't call me soon.

Because she will just nag me about getting married.

Its not that I don't want to marry V, I just think I need more time.

And if you know my Mom, you would know that "I think I need more time" is not enough reason for her. She will say, "well, why did you get pregnant?"

So, what am I supposed to reply to that, right?

Back when I was pregnant, I was sooo sure I wanted to get married. I could feel it in my bones.

But for the past few months, my heart is telling me to wait just a little longer. Add to that the fact that for the past few months, I have heard a few stories of couples who I thought would make it, but didnt.

And that scares me. I don't want the same thing to happen to me.

I don't want to be miserable (come to think of it, with Joaquin around, I don't think that's likely to happen. hehe!).

I just don't want to get married and eventually discover that we're not right for each other.

V and I get along just fine but like any other couple, we have issues that need to be resolved.

And maybe thats why I need more time to delve on the whole marriage thing.

Hopefully, we do decide to tie the knot, but if we don't, we'll still be wonderful parents to Joaquin anyway.

Pray for me.

Pray that V and I get to a decision...

[insert theme from "Jaws"]

Before my mom calls.


Bunny @ Wednesday, March 28, 2007

Tuesday, March 06, 2007


And I mean, everything.

It has changed the way I sleep (tulog mantika no more!)

It has changed my weight (waaaah! This is the part I don't like! I'm an elephant!!!)

It has made me more prayerful.

And so so so much more thankful.

I smile and laugh like never before.

My bank account is depleting (haha!) but I don't mind.

It has altered my social life....uh...what social life? (Charo, Kookie..I MISS YOU!!!)

My favorite stores are no longer my favorite stores.

I no longer Google for celebrity and fashion stuff.

Babycenter, Kellymom, Dr. Sears are my favorite websites.

I look forward to what the future has in store for us.

I am more careful now

and so much more caring.

I can't believe how much I love my baby.

Bunny @ Tuesday, March 06, 2007

Tuesday, February 06, 2007


It's my 2nd day back at work.

And I really miss Joaquin.

Not that I don't like work. In fact, I'm really glad to be back at work. I missed this environment so much.

But I miss being with my baby, especially now that he smiles and stares at me all the time. I miss giving him a bath, feeding him, rocking him to sleep. I miss being able to hug him and kiss him anytime I want.

The time I spend with him when I get home in the afternoon doesn't seem enough and leaving him with his yaya in the morning is heartbreaking.

Kangaroos are so lucky because they can bring their babies everywhere they go.

Kangaroos are so lucky because their babies are always with them.

I wish I was a kangaroo.

I miss Joaquin.

Bunny @ Tuesday, February 06, 2007

Wednesday, November 29, 2006


World, meet Joaquin. Joaquin, world.

Bunny @ Wednesday, November 29, 2006

Tuesday, November 21, 2006

It's the second day of my maternity leave and I am bored bored bored.

I miss work. I miss being productive.

I want to give birth na!!!

(I'm on my 38th week so it should happen anytime soon, right?)

Bunny @ Tuesday, November 21, 2006

Monday, October 02, 2006

Hey guys! I know it's been a loooonnng while but as you can see from the picture, I have a reason. Aside from my workload piling up, I am expecting my little one in a couple of months. And it's going to be a BOY!!!

I really miss you guys, and I can no longer count how many times I've tried to blog only to delete it in the end.

I can't promise that I'll be blogging as regularly as before but you guys will definitely hear from me soon!

Till then,

Bunny @ Monday, October 02, 2006

Monday, April 17, 2006

"Its different for me...I've had the love of my life and no one else could ever touch one can come close. So I'm just out there passing the time, tap dancing...If you want the truth, maybe if I dance fast enough, I won't remember what I've lost."
--Christopher Plummer, Must Love Dogs

Bunny @ Monday, April 17, 2006

Tuesday, April 11, 2006


Carol Banawa

I want you to stay
Never go away from me
Stay forever
But now, now that you're gone
all I can do is pray for you
To be here beside me again

Why did you have to leave me
When you said that love will conquer all
why did you have to leave me
When you said that dreaming
Was as good as reality

And now I must move on
Trying to forget all the memories
Of you near me
But I can't let go of your love
That has taught me to hold on

I want you to stay never go away from me
Stay forever

But now, now that you're gone
All I can do is pray for you
To be here beside me again

And now I must move on
Trying to forget all the memories
Of you near me
But I can't let go of your love
That has taught me to hold on

I want you to stay never go away from me
Stay forever

I want to stay but I have to go my way...

Bunny @ Tuesday, April 11, 2006

Friday, March 31, 2006


I was touched...

and practically naked.

It was long...


and it was soooo darn good!

I can't believe I waited so long to do it again.

Massages are the best. :)

Bunny @ Friday, March 31, 2006

Wednesday, March 29, 2006

"Moving On"

Just getting used to waking up everyday
Not seeing your face
I just began to stop setting your place
And I stop longing for your warm embrace
And it was God that made me able
To finally sleep at night
Though you're not by my side
Finally I don't hardly cry
See right when I start letting go
Somebody wants to let me know
Can they take your place
No they can't fill your space

I tried to move on but you're not gone
Cuz in my heart you still live on

See now I know why
I'll never love another for the rest of my life
And why
Now that you're gone I'm holdin' on
And deep in my heart
I wanna move on

And now I know why
I'll never love another for the rest of my life

I finally put your clothes away
You know the ones you wore the day
That you were taken away from me
I just began to stop wearing my ring
And I finally stop playin' our song
Whe I realized I was dancin' alone and
Finally God gave me strength
To go on and breath again
See right when I start letting go
Somebody wants to let me know
Can they take your place
No they can't fill your space

I tried to move on but you're not gone
Cuz in my heart you still live on
See now I know why
I'll never love another for the rest of my life
And why
Now that you're gone I'm holdin' on
And deep in my heart
I wanna move on
And now I know why
I'll never love another for the rest of my life

Now that you're gone I'm holdin' on
And deep in my heart
I wanna move on
And now I know why
I'll never love another for the rest of my life

God knows it's time for me to move on
I want to feel alive again
I want to be in love again
And no matter how hard I try
I can't erase you from my mind

And I gotta find somebody new
But I just can't get over you

I tried to move on but you're not gone
Cuz in my heart you still live on
See now I know why
I'll never love another for the rest of my life
And why
Now that you're gone I'm holdin' on
And deep in my heart
I wanna move on
And now I know why
I'll never love another for the rest of my life

Bunny @ Wednesday, March 29, 2006

Monday, March 27, 2006

A few nights ago, for lack of anything better to do, I took out our DVD of "Before Sunset" and watched it for the nth time.

The scene that always brings tears to my eyes is the one where they're on the ferry and Celine says that she never really gets over anyone because each person is made up of beautiful, specific details. And she ends up missing those things about each person.

But a few nights ago, I ended up sobbing in a totally different scene. Because the words just got to me. Because everything that Celine said hit a spot. Because what she said was exactly how I was feeling and more.

"For me it's better I don't romanticize things as much anymore. I was suffering so much all the time.

I still have lots of dreams, but they're not in regard to my love life.

It doesn't make me sad, it's just the way it is.

It's not so easy for me to be a romantic. You start off that way, and, after you've been screwed over a few times...You... you forget about all your delusional ideas, and you just take what comes into your life.

It reminded me how... genuinely romantic I was, how I had so much hope in things and now it's like...I don't believe in anything that relates to love, I don't feel things for people anymore.

In a way...I put all my romanticism into that one night and I was never able to feel all this again.

Like...somehow this night took things away from me and...I expressed them to you and you took them with you!

It made me feel cold, like if love wasn't for me!

Reality and love are almost contradictory for me.

...I always act know, I'm detached, but I'm dying inside.

I'm dying because I'm so numb,I don't feel pain, or excitement...I'm not even bitter..."

I think that's what happened. Jason brought my ability to fall inlove with him. He also took what very little was left of my optimism.

And if I never fall for anyone again or if I never love the way I love Jay, then that's okay. I could never regret giving him all that I could because he was worth it and he deserved it.

Everyday, I pray that God would give me a second chance at experiencing that kind of happiness and love and respect again.

I want me back.

I want my life back.

But then again, maybe Jason took mine with his.

I loved and lost and will never be found again...

about moi

Loves the beach, wishes she had more time and money to travel, recently got hooked to climbing mountains, reads anything she can get her hands on, frustrated writer, adores her 3-year-old Lhasa Apso, Tashi, constantly needs caffeine, wonders when she'll quit smoking, and will most likely die due to liver complications from drinking too much (if the cigarettes doesn't get to her lungs first). Can't live without accessories especially big, dangling earrings, shoe freak (aren't we all?), sucker for discovering hole-in-the-wall restaurants, will ingest anything spicy, enjoys giving and receiving massages, addicted to Friends, Sex and the City and CSI, goes gaga over kids, dreams of being alone with Jim Morrison and smoking a joint with Bob Marley. Would love to party with Gwen Stefani, shop with Patricia Field, write poetry with Maya Angelou and have Sting, Nelson Mandela, Mark Twain and Bono over for dinner.

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