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Thursday, March 16, 2006

Well, I've obviously been neglecting this blog, this part of my life...among many other things.

I haven't been writing because I didn't want to remind myself of what I have been trying (unsuccessfully) to be oblivious to for the past months-- that I'm still inlove with Jason eventhough if he's in a place not even my dreams can take me.

It's been sad. I've been really sad.

While some might say that I haven't been trying hard enough to move on with my life, I digress.

Sobrang hirap lang talaga. I've been working twice as hard, fulfilling mg responsibilities at home, splurging on DVDs, books and magazines, etc. I've been keeping myself sooo preoccupied, hoping that thoughts of the person I still love yet lost won't creep in. But they do. They always always always do.

And it sucks when people tell me that life goes on, that I am such a strong girl and that they're sure I'll get over this very soon, even when this pain is tearing me apart from inside. To make it worse, I actually live up to their expectations, putting up a front that I'm okay. Because I don't like people worrying about me. I don't like being fussed over.

I was talking to my cousin Abbey about this yesterday and both being the eldest in the family, we agreed that being this way is normal for us. First-borns are used to being the carer, not the caree. But she said that being human, we also need to be smothered and worried about in one way or another. And we just have to find the right person to do it. Oh well...

On the bright side, there are still so many things to be thankful for...

The new love of my life, Gabe is turning 5-months old soon and he is now at that stage in a baby's life where he smiles and laughs all the time. I get such a kick out of hearing his little giggle and seeing his gums (he doesn't have teeth pa kasi). Also, he is learning to recognize people and so, my sisters and I want to be around him as often as possible.

Isn't he the cutest (and roundest)?

My fairy God uncle also sent me a really cool and helpful gadget which I've been so addicted to lately, because it's WIFI capable! I am so lovin'it!

The Dell Axim X50v

I joined the Accenture Outdoor Club on their All Women's Climb to Mt. Manabu in Sto. Tomas, Batangas last March 4-5. Though it was my 4th time to climb this mountain, I was a little worried about my depleting stamina (as proved during my climb in Mt. Daguldol 2 weeks prior). Surprisingly, I did pretty well during this climb. I didn't even feel tired! Yay for me! This climb was also different among the 3 I had because we took a different trail going up. We were supposed to take the normal route going down the next day but because the head of the pack wasn't really looking (guess who the head was? HAHAHA!), we ended up in a totally different trail, which was fortunately, in my opinion, more fun (because it had ropes, so it felt like we were rapelling) and shorter than the trail we were originally supposed to take. Hehehe!

Oh, I almost forgot to mention that 2 people from the outdoor club recognized me from this blog. One came up to me and said, "Tiba may blog ka? Oo! Ikaw yun!" while we were buying packed lunch at Jollibee. Being the shy girl who only knew 2 people among the 30+ participants, all I was able to muster was a smile and a nod. The second one happened while we were at the campsite, chit-chatting. I was going to take this guy's picture because he was goofing around and he suddenly said, "Hey, baka ilagay mo yan sa blog mo ha?" (There were 4 guys with us, just in case something happened and they were suddenly needed).

I think it's pretty cool!

I am joining another all women's climb with women from different mountaineering groups on April 1 and 2 at Capones Island in Zambales (I've always wanted to go here). But the group has already agreed that there will be no climb--just beachineering! Woohoo!

Then in May, I am taking a 5-day leave from work because I'm going to Hongkong with my sister, her husband, her in-laws and Gabe! Disneyland and shopping, here I come!

And my friends haven't started planning a summer trip yet! Should be an interesting summer, don't you think?

I got a call from my mom an hour ago who commented on the pictures we recently sent her. She said that Gabe is getting cuter and have I been to the doctor?

HUWAAAATT?!?!, I said.

"You are so thin! Para kang kalansay! Are you sick? You should get yourself checked. When I saw how thin you are in the pictures, I got worried because you might be sick!"

"Ma, ang weird mo talaga. When I'm fat, you tell me to go on a diet, when I actually lose weight, you tell me to gain it back."

"Well, you're really thin! You know, you have to take care of yourself.."

Yada yada yada. Mothers! Who gets them?

So there, that's what's been going on with me.

I'm fine.


How blue can I get?
You could ask my heart
But like a jigsaw puzzle it's been torn all apart
Billion words couldn't say just how I feel
A million years from now you know I'll be loving you still

The nights are so lonely the days are so sad and
I just keep thinking about the love that we had
And I'm missing you
And nobody knows it but me

--Nobody knows it but me, Babyface

about moi

Loves the beach, wishes she had more time and money to travel, recently got hooked to climbing mountains, reads anything she can get her hands on, frustrated writer, adores her 3-year-old Lhasa Apso, Tashi, constantly needs caffeine, wonders when she'll quit smoking, and will most likely die due to liver complications from drinking too much (if the cigarettes doesn't get to her lungs first). Can't live without accessories especially big, dangling earrings, shoe freak (aren't we all?), sucker for discovering hole-in-the-wall restaurants, will ingest anything spicy, enjoys giving and receiving massages, addicted to Friends, Sex and the City and CSI, goes gaga over kids, dreams of being alone with Jim Morrison and smoking a joint with Bob Marley. Would love to party with Gwen Stefani, shop with Patricia Field, write poetry with Maya Angelou and have Sting, Nelson Mandela, Mark Twain and Bono over for dinner.

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