::S p U n K y D a i S y::

I've been sooo tamad to go to work this past week. Sooo lazy that everyday, my colleague, TJ and I, tell each other that we will call in sick the next day. But we always end up going to work anyway. Hehehe!

Maybe it's the heat, or the fact that almost everyone I know are sporting tan lines and showing me pictures from their beach trips. Or maybe it's because the urge to travel and relax has been bugging me for the past month.

I had already set my heart on taking a leave on Monday when another colleague, Berns, mentioned that GMA declared May 2 a non-working holiday.

I still don't have a clue as to what I'm going to do but I'm really just happy about the long weekend. As in!!!

Bunny @ Friday, April 29, 2005

Wednesday, April 27, 2005

POST MORTEM

I came home yesterday afternoon to find someone waiting for me in bed.

Now, maybe you're thinking, "Ooohhhhh...Jay?"

Nyahahahahaha! I WISH.

Smoking in my bed with 2 bottles of red horse beside her and looking really glum was my friend, C.

I spent my Monday consoling this girl who went berserk after she found out that 2 months after their break-up, her ex had somebody new. She even went through all the trouble of looking for the girl in friendster and scrutinizing her.

I was under the impression that she was coping with the break-up very well. Au contraire! She met up with her ex last Monday because she felt they needed closure and she wanted to return the ring the ex had given her. Her sister and I met up with her for drinks after that and I tried to cheer her up by saying that the Bvlgari ring she gave back was more worthy of her tears than her ex. I even suggested that we take a moment to remember how gorgeous that ring was. Hahahaha!

Before getting off the car that night, I told her to tell herself what she told me during my last break-up: that I should be happy because someone new is bound to love me and that means, a new love story is about to unfold (And true enough, I'm experiencing a wonderful one now) and isn't that something to look forward to?

So anyway, going back to yesterday. As soon as I got to my room, I asked,

"What's wrong, what happened?", I asked while I changed to my house clothes.

"I miss [insert ex's name]!!!", she wails.

"Wha?! But I thought we were over this?"

"Oh c'mon Bunny, you know how this feels like, you understand, right? Which brings me to this question, How'd you get over your last break-up?"

That made me wonder. Lately, my life has been so full of love from family, friends and Jay that I no longer remember just how hard the process of breaking up and getting over someone is. And all I could tell my friend C was that I didn't really have a hard time getting over my last failed relationship because I had already gotten to the point where I was fed up and did not want to make the relationship work anymore. And that's really the truth. Then my friend says that she's not sure if she can still go through it.

"C, you were able to go through this smoothly for 2 whole months. I don't understand why you're acting like this only after he told you that he found someone new?"

"Oo nga noh...bakit kaya?", she says.

I shrug my shoulders and say, "Beats me."

But seriously, BAKIT NGA BA? Is it just pride, this prior claim we had over that person? Or does it mean that our heart still beats for this former lover? If her ex didn't tell her he had a new girlfriend, would my friend still be moping?

Whatcha think?

Bunny @ Wednesday, April 27, 2005

Sunday, April 24, 2005

LETS GET PHYSICAL!

I'm no health buff.

I'm no gym person either. No offense to you guys who go to a gym, I just don't see the point in running on a treadmill simply because when I run, I'd like my feet to actually take me somewhere. The idea of working out in an enclosed area with no scenery and with some people who are just there to make pa-cute just doesn't appeal to me at all.

And that's why my "work-out" consists of running around the neighborhood at least 3x a week, swimming a few laps in the pool at least every weekend and mountain climbing (Is window shopping considered a good cardio workout? It is, right? hehehe!).

But the past 3 weeks have got me thinking...something's not working quite right: my diet.

I have yogurt for breakfast everyday. It burns fat FAST, you know (because it has LIVE micro-organisms! hehehe!).

I still try to run at least 3x a week.

I still swim every weekend.

I try to eat rice only every other day and when I do, I only have half a cup.

It kinda worked for a couple of weeks (weighed myself last week and I lost 5lbs) except, I've been pigging out this week and I'm worried that I might have gained the 5lbs I lost, back. Am I PMS-ing already? Maybe? I dunno...

Still.

And because desperate times call for desperate measures, I have decided to give in and enroll myself in a gym. There's a small gym right across my house (how convenient, huh?) and I shall go there tomorrow to sign-up for membership. I actually like that this place doesn't have airconditioning. The more sweaty I get, the better!!!

Wish me luck. Hehehe!

By the way,

to the sweetest health buff who managed to turn my world upside down-- JAY! Happy Birthday, Sweetie!

I luuuvvvv you! Wish I could be there to party with you. Oh well, we'll always have next year and the next and the next and the next... (*crosses fingers*)

Hope everyone had a good weekend! All I did this weekend was eat, sleep, run, eat, sleep, swim, eat, sleep. Hehehehe!

Bunny @ Sunday, April 24, 2005

Wednesday, April 20, 2005

There is something absolutely terrifying about attending a cousin's wedding. Friends weddings are fun (really looking forward to Charo's and Jovan's) but a cousin's wedding, albeit still fun, is a different story. It gets worse when the bride, your cousin, is only a year older than you. Gets even worse when you find yourself attending this wedding alone...without even your sisters to act as some sort of shield or diversion from your relatives.

I went to my cousin's, Grace's wedding last Monday and Grace, if you're reading this, can I just tell you again that you looked completely radiant and gorgeous! And all I wish for you and Mike are babies, babies and more babies! Hahaha!

I don't know if I've ever mentioned this before but I'm not really that close to my mom's side of the family. I mean, I'm close to only a number of people like my Uncle F(actually, he's probably the only one I can say I'm really, really close to), my Tita Teresa, my cousins in Chicago who I don't even hear from much anymore and just recently, Grace and Precious. As for the rest, lets just say that I only get to talk to them whenever there are family gatherings. Needless to say, my other relatives don't really know much about me. They don't know what I like, what I don't like, what I do, or whatever it is that's going on in my life. So you can just imagine my surprise last Monday when the following things happened....

I was walking out of the church with my Ninang M, who I have not seen in more than a year, when she said,

Ninang M: How's your bf?
Me: He's okay. (I thought it was just a general question...her, assuming that I had a bf)
Ninang M: When is he coming over?
Me: In June. Woaahhh, wait a minute!!! How do you know?

And then my Auntie T. comes up from behind us and suddenly says, "Kelan daw dadating?"

Super duper startled, I said, "What?!?!? You too? You know? Hoooowww? Who told you?"

And these 2 ladies, just laugh at me and my Ninang M goes, "Oh, narinig lang namin sa tabi-tabi"

So,we're outside the church waiting for the newlyweds to come out so we can shower them with rose petals and rice when my Auntie C, the mom of the bride, calls me over to her. So after giving her a hug and a peck on the cheek, she goes to me, "Bunny, you're next na, ha? Kelan ba uuwi boyfriend mo?"

I was so dumbfounded. All I could muster to say was, "Alam niyo din po?" and a sheepish smile. With that, she touches my cheek and smiles back.

I couldn't sit with the bride for obvious reasons and I couldn't sit with Precious either because she was in the entourage's table so I ended up in a table with 4 aunts, 2 grandmas and a grandpa. And they would not stop hounding me with questions about Jason.

"What does he do?" (He's in IT, like Uncle F) ,"How old is he?" (turning 29 in a week), "Is he tall?" (uh huh! 6 ft, I believe), "He's Freddie's friend, right?" (Yeah and he works with him too), "When are you leaving for the States?" (Not sure yet. Next year, I think.), "Don't you want to get married?" (*smiles*) Aren't you older than Grace?" (No, she's a year older, I just look older) They said a few other things but I'd like to keep those to myself. Hehe!

The night ended with me promising all my relatives (due to insistent demand. They would not take NO for an answer) that I will take Jason to Balayan, Batangas so they can all meet him. One of my Lolos said he will make "kilatis" and my Ninang and Aunts said that they really want to get to know this guy I'm with right now.

It feels weird, strange, funny and nice (and did I already say weird), all at the same time, that my relatives are suddenly interested in meeting and knowing my boyfriend. And I'd be lying if I said that I wasn't pink from blushing the whole time they were asking me all those questions. It's just that, well, I've never, ever introduced a boyfriend to a relative simply because I know that they (especially the aunts and grandmas) tend to add pressure where there should not be.

I mean, sure, the thought of ending up with Jay really appeals to me more than anything else in the world and there's no denying that I want to tie the knot someday. But right now, I think we're just enjoying each other and we like it that way. And while the fact that I've never felt this way about anyone before still remains, we have yet to cross THAT bridge where we breathe and say, "Okay, let's take that leap". So right now, I just want to enjoy the ride whilst crossing my fingers (and my legs and my toes and maybe my eyes, hehehe!) that a great, amazing and may I just add, romantic journey is looming in the horizon for me and Jay. :)

And NO, I never got to find out as to who the tattle tale who told everyone in the clan about my love life is. Haha!

Hope everyone's week is turning out to be as wonderful as mine! :)

Bunny @ Wednesday, April 20, 2005

Friday, April 15, 2005

BLOWING OUT MY CANDLES

Has it really been that long? 26 years. Man, oh man, oh man.

I actually went out on a really hot date yesterday...with myself! Hehehehe! Bought a couple of things I needed and finally got a haircut plus splurged a little bit on some hair treatment. Birthday gift to myself!

Oh well... HAPPY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO ME!!! It's time to parteeeey! Thanks to everyone who remembered and greeted me in whatever way possible!

*closes my eyes, makes a wish and hopes it comes true...blooowwwws my candles*

Bunny @ Friday, April 15, 2005

Thursday, April 14, 2005

Have you ever woken up one morning and thought, "my life has been such a routine lately.."

And after that, you suddenly get this urge to just drop everything and do something a little crazy? Like go on a joyride to...I dunno...just drive and let the winds decide where they want to take you.

Or hop on a bus to Batangas and head for Galera? Or maybe go to Baguio? Or drive to La Union and finally learn how to surf?

Have you ever felt that way?

And while I'm having all these thoughts, I'm singing to Barry White's songs and I'm wishing that I was grooving to it while driving along the highway with the wind blowing in my hair, shades on, instead of fixing stuff I need for work today.

And I wish Jay was here. So I can haul his ass and make these darn thoughts come into play.

But he's not.

So hi ho, hi ho, off to work I go.

Sigh.

Bunny @ Thursday, April 14, 2005

Wednesday, April 13, 2005

So I'm turning 26 in a few days. Closer to 30. Blech.

I'm old. I feel old.

I used to look forward to my birthday. It used to be my favorite time of the year and I used to always celebrate it with a party.

USED TO. Not anymore.

A lot of people don't know this but I've spent the past few years crying on my birthday.

My 24th was spent discreetly crying in a restaurant in Rockwell while having my birthday lunch. Also cried inside a car in the basement parking lot after that. I remember that when I got back to work that afternoon, one of my staff asked me why my eyes looked red and puffy and if I had been crying. I told her it was because I recieved flowers and it really touched me. Hah! Big lie.

I didn't exactly turn 25 with beauty and style because I had just recovered from chicken pox and once again, I found myself crying in a parking lot. Although, this time, I wasn't inside a car, I was inside a dark, empty, unused elevator in an Ortigas' building, calling and texting someone who just completely ignored me. You'd think that things would get better during my birthday dinner, but no...(i refuse to get into the details)

I shit you not, a happy birthday it was not.

So thats why I'm not really amped and excited about my birthdays anymore. Because I feel like all my birthdays are bound to be disastrous. Isn't it supposed to be the one day of the year where people spoil you, succumb to your every whim and cut you some much needed slack? Isn't it supposed to be a happy-happy-joy-joy-I'm-so-bursting-in-yummy-fruit-flavor-and-I'm-not-being-sarcastic-when-I-say-that day? Uh uh...not to meeeee!!! Bah!

I had already convinced myself this year won't be any different as the month started really bad and the week took off with me crying myself to sleep.

Hmm...The past 2 days have been great, though. I dunno...hopefully things will get better. We'll see.

Bunny @ Wednesday, April 13, 2005

Tuesday, April 12, 2005

While doing our morning walk around the village last weekend, my friend, Kristine and I burned more calories when we laughed our asses off upon seeing this sign:

The first time I read it, I really got confused. Was it saying that killing dogs was not allowed or did it mean to say that dogs were not allowed to poop there? And then I figured it was the latter. Hahahahaha!

Bunny @ Tuesday, April 12, 2005

Tuesday, April 05, 2005

HOW I'VE BEEN DEALING WITH STRESS AT WORK

This is pretty much how my desk looks like right now. My colleague, TJ and I (her desk is right beside mine) have these babies within our reach so we can burst their bubbles whenever we feel like bursting ours! Hehehehe!

Bunny @ Tuesday, April 05, 2005

SO TRUE

Was checking my friendster this morning and how cool is it that they now have horoscopes! I checked out mine and oh. my. gawd. Can I just say that it is sooooo true!

The Bottom Line
Everything is under examination. So don't cut corners. Get it right the first time.

In Detail
You're not used to this -- to being so emotional, that is. So when your eyes start welling up with tears (again), and everyone who knows you tells you to take a nap, don't argue with them. They're genuinely concerned, and you really can't blame them. It's not as though you act like this every day, now is it? Be as patient and understanding as you possibly can. Your loved ones certainly are.

Bunny @ Tuesday, April 05, 2005

Monday, April 04, 2005

Was having this conversation with Jay early this morning:

Me: No wonder I was so out of it this past week.
Jay: You're always out of it! Hahaha!
Me: No wonder I wasn't feeling well the last few days. I got my period today.
Jay: Oh no...okay, will let you go now. Have a good day!
Me: Hahahaha! People better not mess with me at work!

Hehehehhe! No wonder my skin has been breaking out. No wonder I ate sooo much dessert the past week (Apple and Cinnamon Danish, Carrot cake, Strawberry Cobbler, Saba con Yelo, Strawberry Ice monster)! Charo and Jovan, I still want some of that Strawberry cobbler we had last friday!

What's unusual is that I didn't wake up cranky. Unlike the weather (its been raining since last night), I'm actually feeling bright and cheery this monday morning. And I'm trying to keep it that way by playing and dancing to these songs while getting ready to leave for work:

Hella Good- No Doubt
Stop the rock- Apollo 440
Another Point of view- DB Boulevard
You Sexy Thing- Barry White
I love you- Martina McBride
Take my breath away- Emma Bunton
Accidentally inlove- Counting Crows
Count to 10- Imanni Coppola (such a naughty song!)
Hello, I love you- The Doors
Pass the Dutchie- Musical Youth
Processed beats- Kasabian
Samba Tranquille- Thievery Corporation

There are other songs but these are the only ones I got to listen to. How about you guys? What songs make you groove? hahahaha!

Okay, I'm off to work! Happy Monday!!

Bunny @ Monday, April 04, 2005

Friday, April 01, 2005

TERRI SCHIAVO

I've been silently following Terri Schiavo's case. I refuse to bring it up when I have conversations with people because well, I think, euthanasia is a very sensitive issue and I'd like to keep my opinions on it to myself.

I don't know if I ever told you guys, but before my dad passed away, the doctors had given us a choice to confine him in the ICU (doctors said that the chances of him making it were very, very slim) or just let him go. And I remember my Aunt asking me to decide.

On a normal day, I wouldn't even consider the latter option but a conversation I had with my father during my lola's wake came to mind...

Papa: Anak, if anything should happen to me, don't give me a hard time, ok?
Me: Huh? what do you mean?
Papa: if I have to go, just let me go. Wag niyo na ako pahirapan. Wag niyo na patagalin. I don't want to become a burden to you guys.
Me: Ano ka ba, Pa! Wag ka nga ganyan magsalita!

With that particular memory in mind, plus the fact that my dad hated being in hospitals, we all deemed it best to let him go. It's not that we did not want to fight for my dad's life. It's just that we knew, he would have wanted things that way. Acceptance is a must.

If you guys haven't heard (but I'm sure you guys have), she already passed away. But then again, I believe we all knew it was bound to happen and that it was bound to happen soon.

And I cannot help but feel sad. I cannot help but feel for those who loved her.

Bunny @ Friday, April 01, 2005