This event in my life has made me realize how many people truly love and care for me. And what friendship really means. And as morbid as this may sound, I have actually already pictured what my own wake will be like. Happy and jam-packed! Hahaha!
This entry goes out to all of you.
To my sisters-Marby, Kristine, Francine and Sunshine for being such strong girls and for still managing to smile amidst it all. I bet Papa is looking down at us right now through very proud eyes. It's just us girls, now. Let's always stick together. I love you guys sooo much.
To Aina--for missing school just to be there for me and Marby. For allowing yourself to have eyebags as big as mine, caused by each sleepless night we spent watching over my Dad. It means the world to me.
To JM--you were the first person I called after I heard the news. And though I didn't want to tell you what was wrong when I called and though I said that I just wanted to talk, thank you for sensing that something was indeed wrong and for making me kulit to tell you what it was. You knew how hesitant I was to rush to the hospital for fear that I will not be able to accept what was waiting for me there. You talked a lot of sense into me. And I am very, very grateful.
To Bianca, Ate Tinand John D--you guys stayed with me in the hospital the morning Papa passed away. You guys made me laugh for so many days and nights. Mwah, mwah and mwah!
To Dennis--7 years, I've known you. And although we don't really see or talk to each other a lot, you have always been there when absolutely needed. You were the first person I cried to over the phone when I was in the ER. And it came as a surprise when you came. Thank you for asking me everyday how I was doing. Thank you for coming to the wake and for being there during the funeral. You, truly are, one of my bestfriends. Pang-habangbuhay na to!
To Jun--It came as quite a shock when I saw you walking towards me in the hospital. It was past 2 in the morning. You lived in Antipolo. I was in Manila Sanitarium in Pasay. Faaaaarrr. How in the world did you get there so soon? And who told you?!?!? Later that night, eerrr, morning, I found out from JM that he called you just to ask for your opinion as to whether we should confine my dad in the ICU or to just let him go (the physician's suggestion. And what I knew, my dad would have wanted). JM said that instead of answering, you asked us where we were, hung up and rushed to the hospital. Thank you for being sleepless for almost a whole week. For being with me at the wake from sunset to sunrise. The last thing I wanted to make you feel was obligated. Because you were not in any way obligated to be at the wake almost every day (He only missed 2 nights! The first was because he had a family gathering, the 2nd was because of his sister's birthday). Thank you for bringing Cranium(whatta fun game!), for playing Word Factory/Boggle with us, and for lending me your pillow (ha! its found a new home in my bed!). I've only known you for a month and half but I feel like we've been friends for as long as I can remember.
To Charo, Jovan, Shirley, Gina and Kookie-- Lovers, lots and lots of thanks for the boxes of cookies and juice that you brought. Cha, you were the only person I texted when I was on my way to the hospital. Kasi nga, I knew na mas malakas ka kay God...and that's why I asked you to pray for my Dad. Hehe! Thanks guys, for calling and texting me everyday to simply ask how I was doing or if I needed anything. Shirley, thanks for calling me long distance and for making me kwento about your life there. The diversion was very very good! Haha! Kookie, the Reese's lip balm you gave me was, and is still such a treat! I love love love it! Chocolate na hindi nakakataba dahil hindi kinakain! Yummy!
To MESAU (Gea, Jun, Malic, Carlo, Stan, Nyl, Glenn, Jello, Ja, Christian, Fadz, Herbert, Ronald, Lyn)-- For the first time, I saw most of the guys in slacks! Haha! Thank you for coming to the wake...twice. And for staying till dawn. Pasensya na, di ko kayo masyado naasikaso. Natulugan ko pa kayo nung last night (pagod na talaga ako nun, promise). Because of you guys, not only have I fallen inlove with conquering mountains, I am awfully smitten by each and every one of you as well. You have swept me off my feet. Totoong tao, totoong kaibigan. Marami pa tayong gin na iinumin. Hahaha! Salamat ng marami!
To everyone else who called, sent their condolences and sympathy via text, over friendster messages or through email, to everyone who sent flowers and mass cards, to everyone who went to the wake to pay their respects...thank you so much. I was in awe. It means a lot to me.
Yesterday afternoon, I was exchanging text messages with Gibs. And I was telling him na parang hindi na ako "malakas" kay God. I know it's stupid of me to doubt Him, but, well, I just couldn't help it. Today, I got my answer in the words of Mother Teresa:
"I know God will not give me anything I can't handle. I just wish he didn't trust me so much."
Wow, He must really trust me a lot. And for that, I am eternally grateful.
Bunny @ Monday, December 06, 2004
Loves the beach, wishes she had more time and money to travel, recently got hooked to
climbing mountains, reads anything she can get her hands on, frustrated writer, adores her
3-year-old Lhasa Apso, Tashi,
constantly needs caffeine, wonders when she'll quit smoking, and will most
likely die due to liver complications from drinking too much (if the cigarettes
doesn't get to her lungs first). Can't live without accessories especially
big, dangling earrings, shoe freak (aren't we all?), sucker for discovering
hole-in-the-wall restaurants, will ingest anything spicy, enjoys giving and receiving
massages, addicted to Friends, Sex and the City and CSI, goes gaga over kids, dreams of
being alone with Jim Morrison and smoking a joint with Bob
Marley. Would love to party with Gwen Stefani, shop with Patricia Field, write poetry with
Maya Angelou and have Sting, Nelson Mandela, Mark Twain and Bono over for