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Tuesday, December 07, 2004

AFTERNOON DELIGHT

Could this be ROUND 2? The following is a series of text messages exchanged between J and me this afternoon. We were talking about falling inlove and being very careful.

Me: If you're falling inlove, guard your heart.

J: I'm not about to let my heart go wild on me again. When I do get to the point of loving anyone, I'll welcome her into my life without fear, apprehension and doubt. I'm too old to play around pa.Hahaha!

Me: Hmmm, that makes me wonder. Isn't falling for someone a risk in itself already? If we don't take that risk, aren't we just fooling ourselves and playing around? Shouldn't we all just take that risk and plunge into the deep, unclear waters of love?

J: True that there are risks especially in love. One thing thats for sure is that you don't know what will happen tomorrow. Whether you're being recklessly compulsive going from 1 relationship to another or be overly careful in choosing, you will always be playing the game of love. It all depends on whether you have the courage to put your feet down and the intuition to say yes and grab your opportunity when it comes.

Me: Thing is, when it does come, how do you know for sure that its love? The last thing I want to do is to mistake like for love. Coz its happened before. And thats why I'm being real cautious now. How can you tell if you're already falling inlove or if you're really just in-like? And if you're not sure, why should you stop yourself or hold back? After all, there really are no guarantees.

J: It's better to be sure that you love the person. I don't need to know that she would be "the one" but I should know and feel that I love her. We both learned that there will be more pain if you mistake love for like and vise versa. There are always risks but there are things that you have to be sure of. I don't know how to know. There isn't a checklist that you can follow. Sana meron, but talagang hindi pwede. For me, and I guess for you too, it just happens. You just know when it hits you.

Me:I guess you're right...

J: The question now is, how sensitive are you when love does hit?baka namna kailangan banggain ka muna ng pison bago mo maisip na mahal mo na nga. Hahaha!

Me: Hahaha! I'm a girl, and unlike most guys, hindi ako manhid. Although sometimes, I want to be, para safer. One of the worst things in the world is to start falling for someone who probably doesnt feel the same way about you.

J: Well, it takes 2 to tango. Buang ka naman if solohin mo ang dance floor. Its not enough that you love him, he has to love you back.

Me: The million dollar question is....does he? There's no way of finding out eh. Thats the thing about falling for someone, its so risky, its scary. Lalo na if you're steering clear of having a broken heart again. Which is really inevitable naman. But then again, sometimes, its the not knowing if he feels the same way part that makes falling inlove all the more worthwhile.

J: Now thats a question only he can answer. what can we do if everybody is a sucker for love?

Me: Thats true. oh well, I'll know when I'm inlove and I'll deal with it when I already am.

J: That's true. We'll cross that bridge when we get there.Ü

I had to read it again...just to make sure. WE'll cross that bridge when WE get there. With a smiley face.

Sigh. What a wonderful 2-letter word that is. Indeed, indeed.

Bunny @ Tuesday, December 07, 2004

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Loves the beach, wishes she had more time and money to travel, recently got hooked to climbing mountains, reads anything she can get her hands on, frustrated writer, adores her 3-year-old Lhasa Apso, Tashi, constantly needs caffeine, ~~wonders when she'll quit smoking~~, and will most likely die due to liver complications from drinking too much ~~(if the cigarettes doesn't get to her lungs first)~~. Can't live without accessories especially big, dangling earrings, shoe freak (aren't we all?), sucker for discovering hole-in-the-wall restaurants, will ingest anything spicy, enjoys giving and receiving massages, addicted to Friends, Sex and the City and CSI, goes gaga over kids, dreams of being alone with Jim Morrison and smoking a joint with Bob Marley. Would love to party with Gwen Stefani, shop with Patricia Field, write poetry with Maya Angelou and have Sting, Nelson Mandela, Mark Twain and Bono over for dinner.

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