::S p U n K y D a i S y::

Monday, August 19, 2002

My good friend (he's almost like a brother) since i was 14, John, left for the States this morning. Its not like he's not coming back. He'll be there for 4 months to work and attend his cousin's wedding. I'm not only sad because we've known each other for 9 years and its the first time he's going to be gone for so long. I'm not only sad because the whole barkada is going to miss joking around with him. I'm not only sad because he's not going to be here for his birthday which he normally celebrates with a drinking and bonding session. I'm sad because his departure just reminded me of my many good good friends and family who have left the country in search for better lives....and a lot of Benjamins. John, i'll miss you bro! Even if you keep calling my dog a hamster!

Aldo. My best guy friend. I owe this man a lot. You see, when my ex broke up with me, i saw so devastated, i decided to kill myself. But since it was my 1st (and by Gawd, the last!) shot at suicide, the pathetic me didn't know how to die. The only thing i found that would make me die gracefully was a blade. Classic. I was about to do it when the phone beside me rang and what do you know, it was Aldo asking me how i was doing. And then i cried like a baby and told him how bad i felt. When he found out what i was supposed to do, he talked some sense into me. Even the next day, he made sure i got to work safe. He was there. For me. And he's been there ever since. We've seen the skeletons in each others closets. He's in Boston now finishing his studies and working at the same time. Although, there's email and text to help us communicate, it's still not enough. Sometimes, our best conversations happen outside my house while smoking a cigarette. Miss you, Alds.

Gina. Met her online back in '97 (or was it '96?). Considered here one of my bestfriends ever since. We both love vanilla milkshakes, kebabs, ox brain and isaw. She's the 1st person i run to when ANYTHING happens to me. She's been in the States for almost half a year now. Ginaaaa my kitty sensi pakner (don't ask me what that means. its a secret code.Hehe!), miss you sobraaaa!!!!

Mama. Last time i saw her was around this time last year. She stayed for a few months before going back to Chicago. Before she arrived, she was gone for almost a year. The first time she left, i cried. I've never been away from my mother. And although we don't agree with everything, i love her to the bone. She had to leave so she can work and provide for the family. Times indeed are hard. I'm actually ok now. I got used to not having her around. I've become more independent that way. But i worry about my younger sisters who need a mom at this stage in their lives. I can try to be a mom to them but i know it won't be enough. *sigh* I will not continue because I don't want to cry.

Coco. Known Coco since we were teeny boppers. Went to the same parties together but were never really close. He's the nicest guy i know. I swear, sometimes he's too good to be true. But he really is too good. I only got to know him really well a year before he left for the States (which was last year) because we would meet for coffee almost every night with other friends. He's in Jersey now and he emails me regularly about stuff that happens to him. I hope he finds a good girlfriend soon. He deserves one.

Shirley. The most kikay doctor you will ever meet. My gimmick buddy. I miss her weekend text messages that go, "San gimik?". Shirley, if you're reading this, bumalik ka na dito. But i know you're happy din there. Hope to see you real soon. mwah!

Survey says 19% of Filipinos want to leave the country because they see no hope in RP. I don't want to leave.

Mr. Benjamin, you're the reason why the people i love and so many more Filipinos are leaving the country.

Bunny @ Monday, August 19, 2002

about moi

Loves the beach, wishes she had more time and money to travel, recently got hooked to climbing mountains, reads anything she can get her hands on, frustrated writer, adores her 3-year-old Lhasa Apso, Tashi, constantly needs caffeine, ~~wonders when she'll quit smoking~~, and will most likely die due to liver complications from drinking too much ~~(if the cigarettes doesn't get to her lungs first)~~. Can't live without accessories especially big, dangling earrings, shoe freak (aren't we all?), sucker for discovering hole-in-the-wall restaurants, will ingest anything spicy, enjoys giving and receiving massages, addicted to Friends, Sex and the City and CSI, goes gaga over kids, dreams of being alone with Jim Morrison and smoking a joint with Bob Marley. Would love to party with Gwen Stefani, shop with Patricia Field, write poetry with Maya Angelou and have Sting, Nelson Mandela, Mark Twain and Bono over for dinner.

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